dumb. dumb. dumb.

Remember how I hadn't taken my painkillers in days? Well my smart mom asked me if I was going for a medal or something. Really I was just trying to be done with them, but this morning when I woke up I really could hardly move for a few minutes. I hurt so bad. I finally got up enough energy to get out of bed, even though it hurt so badly, and took a Vicodin. Only one today though. I could take another now, am hurting again, but not as badly as this morning and I figure weaning down to one a day is good for now. I am a month out from my next (3 month post op) appt anyway which would be the earliest they would see enough bone growth to ditch the brace, start PT and be done with pain meds. So I am stopping trying to prove something, at least for now. I am jut so tired of not being able to say I am doing awesome when people ask!

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