Hope?

Written a Oct 2: Tomorrow is my first acupuncture treatment (4pm) as well as the EMG treatment which will show if my nerve pain is ulnar tunnel, carpal tunnel, or my 2 herniated and degenerated discs in my neck.  It will show if fusion surgery would be beneficial on one more than the others, or 2, or all 3 ;) I'm praying they just figure it out.  Also praying that the acupuncture relieves tension, stress, anxiety, depression, and begins to help.  The acupuncturist is a firm believer that most of my physical and mental health ailments stem from the PTSD I suffered as a teen.  I thought I had mostly worked through it, although I have trouble ever forgiving myself for anything so... maybe?

Prayers and thoughts are appreciated.

Written October 3:

News? Maybe...

I am being referred to a hand doctor for carpal tunnel surgery (minor outpatient) and they still have no idea if neck fusion would be helpful or not.  For now I have no follow up with the ortho spine surgeon unless things get worse, which I am not sure how worse they have to get because it hurts really bad every day and the neuro and pain clinic said there is nothing else they can do but the fingers that are hurting are not the ones that should hurt from where the discs are degeranated and herniated.  So although they are bad discs but the nerve issues don't add up, I guess I am just stuck.  They couldn't tell me what to do.  

I am kind of upset, ok really upset, crying in my car because they told me last week and today both that this test would tell them of neck surgery would help and they still can't say so they are not offering it or anything else but to live with it.  

I do see the acupuncturist in 1 hour so that should help the muscular pain but it can't help the disc pain.  I am at a loss.

2 hours later:

Auricular acupuncture for anxiety, chronic pain, and PTSD.  Supposedly extremely effective... We will see.  They definitely feel like he put a bunch of earrings in.